This video summed up my emotions I have been feeling for the past month or two. I have been extremely blessed by this video and I pray the same for you.
CAREER VS GOD I am an extremely ambitious woman, my career has really been at the fore front of who I am. Some who know me identify me by my passion and my accomplishments. Like Mimi mentioned in the video, you live your life for that one goal and its depressing when you don’t achieve it. For the longest time I’ve based my happiness, identity and my whole being on achieving a goal, whether it be getting a 1st in that exam or attaining that internship but God is revealing that this is wrong. This season has been to just seek Gods face and let everything else fall into place. I’ve had the BIGGEST struggle with not being in control and letting God just take over but actually laying down my burdens at His feet has been my greatest testimony. I can’t begin to describe the amount of peace that comes with just allowing God take the drivers seat, it’s a peace I fight to attain every day. RELATIONSHIPS God has been challenging me recently to venture outside my comfort zone and one of these out of bound zones is relationships. Let’s be honest, we see it on social media all the time, and to be frank it creates jealousy and a sense of wanting to partake in the joy that is a marriage/courtship. This was me. There was a battle in my mind, part of me wanted to be in a relationship and the other repelled the thought of even being in one. Relationships to me has always been scary, the thought of loving someone that much frightens me. The bible talks about the wife submitting to her husband and that’s something I still struggle with God. I can’t even say I fully trust God talk less of a spouse. This sparked a sense of anxiety and a series of unanswered questions, will I ever be in a relationship, and can I truly love someone unconditionally as God loves me. Elizabeth raised two points that really changed my perspective on things. The first point put forward talks about a Man’s inability to lead with a broken woman. This made me think about my current state, I am still broken and the Lord is still doing a great work in me. I can’t venture in relationships or entertain one in this current state; fairy-tales have created a disillusion of what a perfect relationship is where women often play the damsel in distress, hoping for a man to save her. Christ has already saved me, I can’t go into a relationship expecting a guy to fix me. The woman is the neck, while the man is the head, a broken neck means that the head can’t move. This causes a lack of direction and stagnancy in the relationship and lives of both spouses. The second point raised was that you have to question your motives. Why do you want to be in a relationship? What is the motive behind it? A man can’t cure the absence of validation, emptiness and insecurities. The moral of the story is to trust God with your journey, He knows you best and His thoughts of you are good and not evil. I've come to the conclusion that God is still writing my story and I am excited to see what He has planned for me. So if you are a worrier like me, don’t worry about the future, just be still and know He is God. Steph I
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Directed by Joanna Lipper, this movie explores the curious ambition of women in a system that is arched backwards to make barren their existence. Hafsat Abiola is a compelling story teller, as she arouses a proportionate harmony of emotions that motivates one to take a stand for what she believes in. After watching her parents fall right into the hands of the malignant Nigerian government, she is determined to find a treatment that aids all the people of Nigeria, most especially women. She founded Kudirat Initiative for Democracy (KIND), that aims to strengthen civil society and promote democracy.
(PS, I am really keen on watching this movie, but there are currently no viewings of this anywhere in the UK, help a sister) Temi.F Daily Thoughts:
Life is an interesting paradox, trying find yourself and yet be yourself at the same time. My identity is in him, but since I've become a Christian I've seen other sides of me I never knew existed. Experience emotions I never knew I had, makes you wonder? Did i originally have all this character complexities or was it just very well hidden. In vulnerability there's beauty and growth. Enjoy the process called life and don't fight it. The title is quite self explanatory, this video was very much a God sent, considering how i felt today in terms of Academics and life in general. I thought I'd share and bless someone who might be feeling discouraged. ^_^ Stephanie I |
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